The Hate Song

as i work, i'm frowning. 
you don't know what i've been  thinking. 
hands are shaking.  heart is pounding. 
mind is racing.  thoughts are seething. 

i could run you down.  i could tear you to pieces. 
if i speak my mind i'll regret the thesis. 
i'm fighting within myself; i don't want to hate you. 
but you make it so easy.  i'm not listening; go away. 

i don't care about you.  you're so selfish and petty. 
you don't hold the world on a string.  wake up. 
when will you ever learn?

i'm so angry!  and i can't believe i hate you. 
and i'm burning. 
the things you say, they bother me. 
i've got to live with this.

who can write a song for me so i don't feel so alone? 
has someone been there before me?  tell me, how do you atone?
how do i learn to love you?  how do turn this inside out? 
how will i live with myself?  wake up.  how can i love when i'm so angry?

and do You love me?  and do You love him too? 
and You made me, just like him. 
and why can't i see we're equal?
got to live with this