Downtime

awakened by the sound of a new day. 
i lie awake knowing exactly what is takes
to fight the laziness that once was mine;
to snuff the hunger and the deceiving lies. 
before i rise, i see it in my head.

i can feel it when you come around. 
you keep on trying to steal what i found. 
i can feel it, it's all around. 
i've got the power to take you down.

every day, Your ways are what i seek. 
but it's a daily crucifixion of the old me. 
this daily conflict between love and hate. 
Spirit against flesh; i try to put off fits of rage. 
i see myself crawling back inside of me.

i'm sorry, it's got to be this way.  i'm sorry, but you've got to leave!    get out!  stay out!  don't want you here!